It's content meant to encourage audiences
to “go within”, be it within themselves, enlightening conversations, and or within constructs ripe for reconstruction.
What is Inner-tainment?
Keeping my eye
on the PIES!
MUSICAL PODCAST
The Misadventure of Clown ZerO (MACZ) is a fictional, musical storytelling narrative for podcast. Ostensibly, the thirteen episode season is about a storm that threatens to destroy the world that the characters of MACZ reside in;
but the true subject of the show are the events, revelations, and life-lessons that occur when a ponderous, misfit clown born without a
"Mirth-mark", Clown ZerO, and their best
friends, find themselves inside the storm itself.
A veritable "Should-Storm" in fact, all in search
of Clown ZerO’s nose (the narrator of our tale) who has left ZerO’s body to prove a simple
point: that ZerO is not the misfit story that they’ve been telling themselves and that there’s a hero inside all of us.
Resembling something of an adult storybook for the modern age the podcast takes inspiration from classics like "The Wizard of Oz" and
"The Phantom Tollbooth" to tell a quirky,
non-traditional modern-day fable that confronts both the high-brow quandaries of a self-aware existence and the low-brow realities of everyday life. In an age that is so digitally “connected”, MCAZ seeks to unplug it’s listeners’ anxieties by allowing them to dive into a mirrored, cartoon fantasy that’s just familiar enough to reflect their own nature. So as the misfit, “every-clown” goes on their journey of self-discovery, care, reflection, and empowerment — MCAZ invites its listeners to do the same.
The Misadventures of Clown ZerO
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SOLO THEATER
“All Up in a White Woman’s Closet” is a one-woman adventure inside the psyche tracing the journey of a young woman in search of self and of racial identity.
This she does by way of a much cluttered closet and much to her horror, a metaphysical mammy she’s somehow manifested to help clean it! Jammed within this symbolic closet are hidden all the subconscious notions amassed
over the ages by her ancestors. Looming in long forgotten corners are stuffed all the memories accompanying foremothers and fathers who found themselves helplessly absorbed into a culture not their own. The closet, which extends into the audience, reflects this. In addition to housing costume pieces to be used during the show the space overflows with “Darky Art”, gross African-American caricatures of old.
These unsettling sights, coupled with skin-bleaches, hair relaxers and straightening combs etc. serve as archival testament to how people of color have seen themselves depicted over the years, thus illuminating and seeking to heal the subsequent self-loathing the images have at times spawned. The general premise of the closet then is to give voice to an assortment of characters as they try to find their proper place within an ever-changing society that long ago consumed them but would now prefer to forget why or how. This it does through a series of vignettes that cross the spectrum of time, sex and circumstance, both real and or imagined. By sorting through the myriad of things placed within the closet by those making the arduous journey from being themselves mere property to the owners thereof, we arrive at our theme: Once a character is exposed and given life, the closet’s collective consciousness is then freed of it. By exposing and theatrically disposing of this mythic closet’s dirty secrets and asking the question what does racial justice look like in it today, the play hopes to establish a platform of discourse giving people around the world cause to look into their own experiential closets in answer.
SHADOW PUPPETRY
The Misadventures of Clown ZerO originated as a short play for the New York Neo-Futurists’ long-running show, Too Much Light Makes the Baby Go Blind. During my years as a company member, the shadow puppetry featured in the piece earned me a small statue.
Shining light on how the shadows are made.
Video in response to Submittable's "Fail Better"
competition where creators were asked to share their "biggest" failure.
"TITTY DITTIES" INSPIRED BY "BUXOM THINKERS"
Welcome to "Titty Ditties," where I do my (ahem) very breast to jiggle the work of the great minds who inspire me into sacred-silly song! My approach is simple: I distill high-brow philosophy into primary colors—tickling its complexities to make the profound feel as bright and accessible as a beginner’s mind.
Titty Ditty Theme Song from Me-Wee's Playhouse
Bayo Akomolafe
This first Titty Ditty is the song "Be Still and Spill" inpired by Bayo Akomolafe's notions of what he calls Generative Incapacitation.
About the Ditty...
Generative incapacitation is a concept developed by author and professor
Bayo Akomolafe that describes a radical, active form of "un-becoming" or surrender, designed to challenge dominant paradigms of productivity, mastery, and control. It is not a passive state of helplessness, but rather a "fugitive" practice of embracing vulnerability, failure, and limitation to allow for new ways of being and relating to the world.
Key aspects of generative incapacitation include:
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Embracing Failure: It invites a departure from the need for certainty and linear progress ("arrival"), suggesting that "falling" or being lost is a necessary, fertile ground for transformation.
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Postactivism: Akomolafe uses this term in the context of "postactivism"—a call to slow down and rethink how we approach social change, moving away from combative "speaking truth to power" toward building "sanctuary in the cracks".
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The "Afrocene" and Onto-fugitivity: It is linked to Akomolafe's work on the "Afrocene" (a decolonial approach to ecological crisis) and "onto-fugitivity," which is the practice of moving outside conventional structures of power and identity.
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Response to Urgent Times: It is a radical pause in the face of modern, high-speed, and secure, "neoliberal" regimes, allowing for a slower, more contemplative engagement with life.
Akomolafe often describes this as a "disappointing" of the desire for mastery, allowing the "monstrous" or the unexpected to emerge, transforming our limitations into a "materiality of care".
This Titty Ditty is inpired by Bayo Akomolafe's notions about the dreams of boxes thinking outside of themselves...
Resmaa Menakem
In this "Titty Ditty" Me-Wee pulls back the curtain on the ultimate costume: the human body.
About the Ditty...
Inspired by Resmaa Menakem’s Somatic Abolitionism, this song explores the heavy truth that the trauma of white supremacy isn't just an idea—it’s physical. It is stored in our muscles and nerves, keeping us perpetually "triggered and torn" in a fast-fashion dark night of the soul. This "fast-fashion" state exists because Me-Wee believes our meat suits are exactly that—costumes. We are spiritual beings having a human experience, far greater than the physical shells that dictate how we are treated in the world. So, what if we strip them off and strut our "stuff" accordingly every now and then? This track invites us to discard our "tight-ass" societal selves and reveal the spiritual essences underneath. It’s time to see what happens when the costume comes off and the soul starts to dance.
What is Somatic Abolitionism?
Developed by psychotherapist Resmaa Menakem, this is an embodied, anti-racist practice aimed at healing racialized trauma by freeing bodies—and communities—from the internalization of white-body supremacy.
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Dismantling White-Body Supremacy: Challenging the notion of the white body as the "standard," which traumatizes people of color and restricts white bodies.
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Body-Centered Tools: Using movement, breathing, stillness, and grounding to process stored trauma.
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Communal Focus: Starting with the individual to build resilience that ripples out into the collective.
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Embodied Practice: A living, daily cultural shift that requires physical "reps" to build the capacity for discernment and healing.